God, I don't know why You want me to carry this load. I can see no good in it & it's awfully heavy. But, if You want me to carry it, I will ...
I found this today ... And it sums up my life right now in a nut shell ... I feel like I am carrying an awfully heavy, no good load, but if God wants me to carry it, then I will !!
For the most part, I try to live a good life. I have a wonderful husband, 5 beautiful & healthy kids and a very select few good friends. I try to bless people when I can with positivity & keep my mouth shut when I can't ... Sometimes, I fail miserably at this !! I'm only human, after all ...
There are people in my life that I wish were not there... I can't do anything to change that. So, instead, I pray that God gives me the wisdom & the strength to deal with them in the best way I can & to ignore the things that they do that cause me hurt. I pray that God shows me the positive in why I am forced to deal with them & helps me over look the bad.
I have had a tendency lately to have the attitude that if people ignore me & the things that happen in my life, then I am going to ignore them. God has laid it upon my heart that that is the wrong attitude to have ... Just because people do me wrong, doesn't mean that I should return the favor. Instead, I should do the exact opposite. I am slowly & steadily trusting in God and realizing that He is, as always, right and I feel much better for it ... So, I began to do that just today. I make the effort when I really would rather just sit & sulk and gripe to myself about the person. I pray for them instead ! I don't want to just "get over it" anymore. Instead, I want to trust God to get me through it.
It is amazing what a new attitude can do !!
Matthew 7:7 "Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you."